Growing with littles

“Can I drink this pool water?” “I’ll just put this in my milk.” “Look! I am climbing!” Parenting two little kids is a very different type of leadership than I’ve practiced in other seasons of life. Two people literally follow me around (or I wear them around) all day. They need me to direct their …

Freeing Mary from Martha’s Overcare

“Let’s shut down the blog,” Martha demanded. “We’re hardly using it anymore and it’s not worth the cost.”  “No, no!” cried Mary. “This is life-giving! It’s worth it! We’ll add it to the repertoire of rest activities we do when Daddy takes the toddler out once a week!”  So here we are on Saturday afternoon. …

Why I think God allowed childbirth to be cursed

My Bradley Method class taught me that the first stage of labor is excitement. But when I went into labor, I was immediately triggered. It was like PTSD. I thought labor was supposed to feel like muscles working, but the first thing I felt was exactly like the four miscarriages I went through. My water …

How I’m really feeling one month postpartum

Oh my goodness, I have a kid! And where did that whole first month go? Apparently I don’t have time to write paragraphs anymore but here are my latest thoughts.I went to the dentist the other day. It was the first time I left my baby with a non-family member, so that’s all I could …

What my dying neighbor is teaching me about lizard brains

I’ve been thinking about lizard brains a lot lately because I see this concept in action every time I hang out with my neighbor, who is slowly dying. That’s a crude way to phrase it, but if you saw her, you’d agree. She weighs less than 85 pounds- just a shadow of the round woman she once was. Hospice…